Everyone views themselves in a different way, from their own perspective. My personal perspective of myself has changed greatly over the past few years.
Along with huge life changes came unwanted weight gain that left me feeling depressed and hopeless. I no longer felt like myself. As I got more involved with work, working extra shifts and learning as much as I possibly could, I felt proud of myself for putting my complete effort into my career- I’m proud to say it’s paying off. As happy as I am with how much I’ve grown professionally, I felt myself slipping away from another aspect of myself, my fitness goals.
Before I moved to California I had never weighed more than 120 pounds at any point in my life. With all of the changes in my life I lost track of how important my health is and did not notice when the extra pounds started packing on. I felt like I had completely lost myself and eventually gave up on ever being the same weight I was before I got married. This lead me to changing the way I dress, socialize and overall my daily routines and habits. Some of this I can blame on not being in my early 20’s anymore, but most of it I can blame on negligence.
Of course, the comments irrelevant people around me hurt the most. Those closest to me have always been more than supportive, but we all know those select few aunties who feel as though they’re entitled to make certain comments about the way people look (I suggest they look in a mirror before judging others). With modern day technology and the world’s obsession with social media, I found my motivation to lose weight slip away time and again with countless new diets, morning routines, workout plans, etc. falling apart within a few days because I didn’t see instant results and would hate myself for it. I don’t know about you but motivation is my biggest struggle. So, here I go again on another journey to feel like (and look like) myself again. For those with negative comments, keep them to yourself because there’s honestly too much bullshit in the world to be adding yours to the mix. For those on a similar journey I wish you the best of luck and hope you reach your goals. As for me, I’m taking it one step at a time, and hopefully if things work out well on this weight loss journey I’ll have some tips to share regarding my experience! Please wish me luck!
